How to restart...

I know I have told you before I would do better. I would write to you and get back into a rhythm. I just am not sure how to restart. I actually miss talking to you. I miss sharing what is going on here and the life I am living. It has been an emotional rollercoaster, a small one but a rollercoaster none the less.

You will notice I quit writing around the end of the year.  The holidays were not easy. Definitely not a fun time for me. Knowing my family was doing things together and I was alone on the island was an emotion pit that I fell into. Technology let me down. We tried to have a video chat to include me in their activities. But the connection was poor and very short. All it really did was let me know they were together and having a grand time. And I was not part of it. I know this sounds selfish; I should be happy for them. I was happy for them but that did little for filling my days here. I have learned a lot about myself... Not proud of some of the discoveries. As mentioned before, I said I would give you the good and the bad.   It is harder to write about the down, empty, depressed, gloomy times and feelings. So the holidays were the end of my blog entries and the restart has been hard.

A lot has gone on here. I want to tell you but I've lost some of the chronological facts. My plan, therefore, is to just discuss things without trying to keep them in order. Current events will be obvious but the rest will just be lacking information related to sequencing. I will pass things on to you as I remember them.

And another caveat...   A lot of the things I have to discuss with you have been written before in some form or another. So I apologize for dishing out the same or similar facts or stories. I am not going to re-read my notes and posts to you to make sure I don't say the same things more than once. Keep in mind that much of my life is redundant anyway. You are just having to deal with the written version.

So, thank you for checking in as you just did to see that I am here.

cz, 1350 5/5/15